"There are few people whom I really love, and still fewer of whom I think well. The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it; and every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of merit or sense." 

-Jane Austen

Uni's finished and I'm not happy with my performance at all. I let bad choices consume me and I'm going to take this Summer to really prioritise what I need to do with my life. I keep saying it but I can't be continuously unhappy with myself right? Especially with my own choices with my study.
Work is picking up again. Moved from Lyric to Capitol and I'm sad about it, but the shifts are looking good so I shouldn't be caught up in the fact that I didn't want to leave Lyric in the first place. Said goodbye to Morgan today and I am actually really buggered! Sent Max a birthday message and I got the sweetest message back. I feel so appreciated, ha.
Reconnected with a great friend after not talking for what seemed like weeks (probably a week) and just how we're always picking one another up happily. Amo a mi mejor amiga muchos!
Estoy muy triste debido a tu.

¡Hola! ¿Comó estás?

Me llamo Jenny Lam, soy australiana y vivo en Sidney. Hablo vietnamita, inglés y poco de español. Soy estudiante en la universidad tecnología Sidney. Voy a universidad dos días por semana. Trabajo en la Lyric teatro Sidney como barmen por uno año. Trabajo dos o tres días por semana. Tengo 19 años y mi cumpleaños es el 29 de noviembre 1992. Tengo no muchos amigos porque las gentes son estúpidas y groseras. Porque tengo mi novio y mis mejores amigos y yo los quiero mucho.

Mi novio es James Pereira y yo veía él todos los días porque yo lo quiero James mucho. James vive cerca de mi casa y trabaja como barmen con yo en la Lyric teatro. James es muy guapo, muy inteligente y muy divertido y él es mi mejor amigo y mi novio.

En este momento, estoy estudiando español porque tengo un examen el jueves. Hoy he comido con James en Cabramatta porque él he venido a mi casa. También he ejercido este mañana.

Mañana tengo un examen y una clase de español. El jueves tengo presentación y examen de español. Después de examen de español, yo termino universidad!

Pienso voy a las playas, voy de la compras con mis amigos, trabajo mucho, estudio español y voy New Caledonia con mis amigos y James. Estoy emocionado pero subrayó. No quiero estudiar pero termine pronto!!!!!!!!!

I'm avoiding any real study by typing this out. Grrrrrrrrrr I really cbf to study.

It's been a long time! Well, it feels like it.
But nothing much has changed. I'm even more behind on my uni work, but I'm determined to study properly until the 9th of November when THERE WILL BE A LIGHT AT THE END OF THIS DARK, SLOW TUNNEL. James gave me a prep talk yesterday and it motivated me and also makes me count my lucky stars all the time. I'm so thankful for my life, I really am. I cannot be happier and I can't wait to continue to grow and continue to be happy!

Hello my new baby! I gave my iPhone to my brother and he's so happy about it, haha. But I am so totes in love with my new phone! So is James. We tried using his old Samsung Galaxy S and it felt like we were playing with an old Nokia phone! I just need my phone cover to come and for James to take me to the Mimco store so we can see if the Mimco Pouch fits my phone - (he hates my old wallet, my birthday is coming up and my wallet is going to die). So let's hope!

Happy 20th Jimmy!!!!! It was his party on Saturday night and it was a good night out! Let off some steam, had some cake, hehe. Had late night fatty food and came back over in the morning for pancakes and ice cream and chicken!!! Then James and I took out Jimmy's little sister and she is adorbs!!!!!!!!!!!!! There was also a bird stuck in a cage at Straithfield and we really wanted to get it out but James couldn't pull the gate open :( I have also spent every night from Friday to Tuesday with James and I miss him already right now :( 

Ohhh and on Sunday it was also our 11 months! Forgot to mention that this was the day after Jimmy's birthday and he spent the first hour and a half passed out in the back of my car. Haha I love you, James and no doubt ever that you feel the same way about me. Cannot believe it's less than a month until our one year and cannot believe that in 2 days it would've been the first time I laid eyes on him! (Cheesy, but true. Didn't take us long to go out haha and didn't take us much to start talking either!)

Uni is nearly over - NEARLY.

I said I'd start doing work and I haven't. It's Week 11 of uni and I finish in less than 3 weeks - why can't I do this!? Why can't I be committed?

At least with my exercise I've been somewhat more committed than I have with my studies. James and I started doing the bay run a few times a week and I can feel myself improving. I can never express how lucky I am to have him, he puts up with my anger while we run because he makes me run until I can feel my stomach in my chest and the burn in my legs and the heaviness in my breathing increases. I keep telling myself  I need to be better with my fitness, 'to strive for progress, not perfection' and he helps me with that. One day I'll be able to do the 7kms, but I know for a while I'll stick with running and walking in intervals. I can't push myself knowing how easily I can drop my pace and start walking, but I hope with him I'll be able to keep running!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One day, baby, one day!

And I've said this EVERYWHERE, but we ordered our Note 2s on Thursday morning!!!!!!! We're getting it for one another for our one year/Christmas & my birthday present because we're poor and we're more than happy to be tightarses with one another but it's coming super dooper early and I'm excited!! Except we thought we'd be getting it this morning, but it's not being dispatched until the 18th :( Meaning not until Friday or Monday next week! Why!!??!?! Our stupid car kit for the phone came though. How silly is that!? I'm giving my iPhone 4G to my brother, and he's lucky because there are absolutely no scratches on it and it's only a year and a half old (barely). 

We've started watching Homeland and IT IS SO CRAZY INTENSE. I can't watch it at times because it's so suspenseful!!! So if you haven't watched Homeland, WATCH IT.

I'm in an old school/good rnb mood today. Weird, huh?

Yesterday - Toni Braxton & Trey Songz. 

My favourite song of all time, seriously, hands down.

On Bended Knee - Boyz II Men

Water Runs Dry - Boyz II Men

End of the Road - Boyz II Men

I'll Make Love To You - Boyz II Men

Be better, not bitter. Why do I always find myself in this situation?

I've been swamped with work. Legally Blonde is now showing, so that means we have shifts again! Had stock shifts from Tuesday to half of Thursday, then a proper shift at night, then double on Saturday and a shift on Sunday. It felt good to have the Friday and the Monday off. Then I have work again today.

Defqon 1, was of course, amazing. However I just felt like shit from 9pm until Monday, so it was definitely a sure sign for me to take it easy and it turned me off going out for a while. Now James and I are contemplating whether to go Stereosonic or not, but we have our tickets and I wouldn't feel right at all if I didn't go. Stereosonic in 2010 was my favourite (and first) festival, and I don't want to miss out because I'm lazy...

ANYWAY, The Script was last night and I WAS SO CLOSE TO DANNY. So close. James pushed me to touch his hand when he leaned down but EVERYONE WAS IN MY WAY. I was two people away, TWO. I'll never be that close again!!!!!!!!!!!!! They have such a great stage presence, and I am a satisfied cookie!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Many, many things have happened. I should probably dot point them:

• Right before we got into the gates of Defqon, my parents called me up to tell me that they've broken James' bike key in his ignition... My father the genius. We decided not to worry about it until the next day, when we found out that they actually broke his work locker key into the ignition, and we were so relieved that we didn't have to get his key replaced seeing as we haven't got a copy of his key, (which we said we would, for months, but didn't.. This is a sure sign)
• I swear there were so much more to blog about. I guess not. My life is borrrrring.
• Oh right, work!!!! We had stock shifts and they were long and tiring. Work is back and I'm so glad, so so glad, and I hope I continuously get shifts because I have too many things to save up for (James' Christmas gift, 1 year gift, Vietnam airplane ticket, P&O Cruise, then in May, pay for the ski lifts for Perisher next year!)
• Our ten months was spent being tired with one another. Romantic, hey? We headed down to Parramatta from Balmain (biggest treck) to have lunch with my aunty and her new bubba! He is adorable. Fat and adorable!! Then at night we went to like, Lancove to Straithfield and back again for Noggi with James' friends where my excitement for The Script built up!!!!!!!!!
• THEN IT WAS THE SCRIPT LAST NIGHT. We ate our steaks too fast, but apart from that it was amazing!!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY SUCH A GOOD NIGHT, I WANT TO RELIVE IT (except for when all these people pushed and squashed us, but who cares!!!!! We were so close!! And the crowd was amazing, singing and all!)
• AND I HAVE TO DO MY ASSIGNMENT. OK BYE.

AND I WANT THE NOTE 2, I can't wait to be waving it around and wacking people with it!!!

Okay, my photo won't rotate and I don't know how to on this thing, but, like, HE'S TWO HEADS AWAY. SO CLOSE YET SO FAR.

This was during "For The First Time". I LOVE YOU THE SCRIPT.